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A FerrisWheel Shipping Fanfiction

Chapter 9

"...N?"

"Hello again, Touko."

Touko hadn't seen the emerald-eyed man since the incident at the Ferris wheel; the last thing she said - screamed - to him was to not touch her and, though he didn't hear it, begging him not to go. Now that he was in front of her, she felt the same fear that made her scream at him before bubbling up inside her. Yet the want for him to stay, though minimal compared to the fear, was present as well. Either way, her heart was going berserk as N continued to stare at her while she was still on the floor after being pushed by unknown hands.

"N, wh-what are you doing here?" Touko asked carefully, rising back to her feet. "Who was that?"

"The Shadow Triad." N answered, looking off for a moment. "The shadows of silence who do my bidding, no questions asked. And, though I'm sure you won't believe me, I came because of you."

N was right; Touko couldn't believe it. She couldn't believe that N would seek her out when all their other encounters had been by chance. Or so she wanted to believe. But, maybe, those first encounters were planned as well; Touko still feared that everything with N had all been a setup, a fraud to weaken her. And though she hated to admit it, she felt weakened whenever she was around N. "Why would you do that?" She asked.

"It's because I still find the equation that is you impossible to solve." N replied, looking back at Touko, his eyes searching hers. "You have a pair of friends; Cheren and Bianca. Cheren is serious, well-read, over-protective, and strives to become the strongest trainer ever. Bianca is flighty, overly cheery, prone to daydream, and doesn't seem to have a greater purpose than just being happy with her Pokemon on her journey. They are as different as...black and white."

Touko remained silent, contemplating the horror she was feeling about how N knows about her friends, actually describing them as well as she would. Had he been watching them, or was someone watching them for him?

"Then there's you." N continued. "You grew up with your two friends for most of your life, and yet you aren't like one or the other, neither black nor white. You are...like a mixture of your friends, showing one quality then showing the other. It's confusing."

"No matter how much you try to separate the colors," Touko said, making the best of the color metaphor N had used. "There will usually always be a gray area in-between black and white. The line is not as clear-cut as you wish it to be."

N continued to give Touko a puzzled stare. She hoped that her description had made sense to the boy. Minutes had passed before N slowly approached Touko, his eyes never leaving hers. "Why?" He muttered. "Why can't I understand?"

The closer N got, the further Touko backed away from him. She finally backed into a wall, with N still in approach. When he got close enough to reach his hand to her face, that was close enough. "Don't!" Touko cried, cringing away from his outstretched hand.

N froze at seeing the same fear in Touko's eyes as that time at the Ferris wheel. DON'T TOUCH ME!!! Her scream echoed in his mind once again. Not wanting to hear or see her like that again, N pulled his hand away and backed up a few steps. "Why...?"

"Is that you, Touko?" Blue and green eyes looked away from each other and to where Professor Juniper's voice came from. She was near the entrance to Chargestone Cave with Bianca.

"Professor? What are you doing here?" Touko asked.

"I'm on my way to Mistralton City to visit someone." Juniper replied.

"And I'm escorting her there!" Bianca chirped. "Touko, who is this?"

N now stared at Professor Juniper. "I am N. You are Professor Juniper, creator of the Pokedex, correct?"

"That's correct. Are you a trainer?"

"So, you encourage the pointless capturing of Pokemon." N said, ignoring Juniper's question entirely. "Confining them in tiny prisons...just so they can fill up all the pages in that abominable device?!"

"I don't encourage anything like that." Professor Juniper replied calmly. "The only thing I encourage the trainers I send out is to do their best on their journeys. To meet as many new Pokemon and gain new experiences as much as they can so they can grow as trainers and as people. Gaining new Pokemon friends is not pointless, and the Pokedex's purpose is to allow trainers to better understand the world around them."

"All trainers are just heartless people who use their Pokemon selfishly!" N yelled before running further into the cavern.

"Touko," Bianca said. "Really, who was that? Is he...special to you?"

At first, Touko wasn't sure how to answer Bianca's question. The want for N to not go was urging her to go after him. Because in all honesty, she wanted explanations from him. But the fear was still very present, telling her to stay away from him. Plus, being called 'heartless' stung and she felt the need to prove him wrong.

"He..." Touko started. "Well, I guess 'special' isn't the word I'd use, but..."

"Do you want it to become special?" Bianca asked, arching her eyebrow.

"Honestly, I'm not sure yet." She looked to where N ran deeper through the cave. "Do you mind if I go on ahead? I need to talk to him, alone."

"Well," Juniper said. "If you're sure you know what you're doing, then alright."

"Thank you." Touko said before running off after N.

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N was near the exit to Mistralton City when Touko caught up to him. She had to go through several Plasma grunts first though, all stating that they had to protect their King.

"N! Please wait!" Touko called out.

N was facing away from her, and stayed like that even after hearing her voice. "Why did you come after me, Touko?" He asked.

Touko bit her lip, not sure how best to answer him. "I need to talk to you. I want to know-"

"Touko," N said suddenly. "What does love mean to you?"

Once again, one of N's questions caught her completely off guard. Her rebound was much quicker this time though. "Why would you even ask something like that?"

"The first time I heard about love," N said. "It was from a story book I read long ago. I then learned more from my Pokemon friends, who told me love was a very special connection shared between two individuals which makes you feel different than you have ever felt before. I grew up believing what they told me to be what love is. But then you came along, and now I'm not sure what to think anymore. Tell me, are people in love when they go on a date?"

"Uh..." Touko was surprised that N would figure that out. The boy always seemed so naive to her. "...Yes."

N didn't speak for a while. Then he finally looked at Touko, his eyes filled with confusion. "Touko, are we...in love?"

A surge of feelings overcame Touko. She was first flabbergasted, then happy, sad, angry, and defensive. The dominant feelings she got was hurt and defensiveness. "N, you don't understand." She said, awestruck. "There is much, much more to love than just having a single date. Yes, you feel something special when you're with the other person, but there's more to love to that. There's commitment, there's understanding the other's feelings, there's trust..."

"Do you...not trust me?" N asked innocently.

Touko stared at him incredulously. "How can I trust you?!" She yelled. "You're King of Team Plasma! You're aiming to forcefully take Pokemon away from their beloved trainers! You're working with that horrible man Ghetsis! Just how am I supposed to trust you?!?"

She paused, calming herself before continuing. "You know, I always believed that I couldn't trust anyone, not even myself. Then you...you made me want to start trusting others again. I wanted to trust you N, I really did! But, you betrayed that trust by telling me that you lead the ones I oppose. How do you think that would make me feel, N?!" She paused again to wipe some tears from her eyes. "I want explanations, N. I want to know how long you've been deceiving me. I want answers from you this time, no more of your questions."

N was shocked and pained. He had come here, ignored the duties of his mission and sought her out this way, hoping that she would confirm that what he was feeling whenever she was near really was love. Instead, she told him that she couldn't trust him, even though she really wanted to, and he made her cry once again. The feeling to slap himself for causing her sorrow presented itself again, but he still couldn't understand why he felt this way.

Maybe, he had thought, it was one of the many parts of love Touko talked about; causing their pain making you hate yourself for it. Was it possible, to love someone even if they didn't love you back? Could it be possible to earn love and trust from someone else? Does Touko hate him? These questions buzzed through N's head, giving him a headache and derailing his train of thought. A few moments passed before he recollected one thing in his jumbled thoughts: Touko wanted answers. "What do you want to know?" He asked tentatively.

"How long have you been working with Ghetsis and Team Plasma?" Touko asked calmly.

"All of my life. Let's just say that I didn't ask for the life of a king, but accepted when told that it would let me save all my Pokemon friends."

"Why do you believe that all trainers are evil?"

"Because they are! No matter how kind the trainer may seem at first, they will always one day hurt their so called 'partners'. Pokemon will always suffer at the hands of their trainers! But I will change that so that no more of my friends will suffer anymore cruelty."

"How do you plan to do this?"

N paused. Detailed conversations of the plans Team Plasma has for the future were strictly only for those highest in the ranks of Team Plasma. Even though he was their king, he barely knew much of what was being planned. So, deciding that it was safe enough to tell Touko what he knew about it, he answered. "I will enlist the assistance of a legendary being who will help me shape the future. But, before my ideals can be made reality, I must defeat the Champion and be recognized as the strongest."

Touko said nothing for a while, remembering the last time they met and the challenge he offered: If you want to stop me, your only hope is to collect all the Gym Badges and defeat the Pokemon League. Finally, she asked the one question she wanted answered the most:

"N. Through all the time we've known each other, ever since I first met you, have you been lying to me about everything?"

It was N's turn to stare at Touko incredulously. "You think I've been lying to you this whole time? Liars are despicable people, and I want no place among them. I've meant every word I've ever said, and every word I ever will say. I am King of Team Plasma. Pokemon are all my precious friends. I really can speak to them. I believe all trainers are heartless and selfish. And I will fulfill my dream to separate humans and Pokemon! Making sure that the line between black and white becomes clean-cut; without the blasphemous gray area this world lives in today!"

Touko coldly stared at N. "So, you believe that the relationship Pokemon and people share now is despicable and blasphemous." Looking down, she pulled out a PokeBall and released Serperior, who was very unhappy to see N again. "Then allow me the honor of proving to you how wrong you are!"

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Touko had defeated N once again (and Palpitoad evolved into Seismitoad as well).

"Why do I still lose against you?" N asked, staring at Touko with anger. "Is it because I don't fight as a trainer, but you do?"

"You keep losing," Touko answered calmly, returning Zweilous to his ball. "Because you really can't understand the truth behind how precious the bond between Pokemon and trainer really is. I will never do anything to hurt my Pokemon, because they are my precious friends as well."

N looked down. "It seems that you are the liar here, because all trainers lie and will eventually hurt their Pokemon." N turned around. "You really are as heartless as the rest."

That was it for Touko. She had had enough and stomped to where N stood, turned him around, grabbed the front of his shirt, and raised her right hand. Before she could slap him though, she stopped herself, figuring that this action would be counterproductive to what she was about to tell him. So she lowered her hand, let go of his shirt, and took a step back, not looking into his now fearfully shocked eyes.

"I'm not heartless." She whispered tensely, trying to keep her frustration with the boy under control.

"I'm...shattered."

N looked at her, thoroughly confused. "...Shattered?"

"Oh, Touko! There you are!"

Bianca's high pitched voice caused Touko and N's heads to snap up. She and the professor had come after Touko, believing that they had given her a sufficient amount of time alone with N.

"Are you alright, dear?" Juniper asked. "We heard yelling and came as quickly as we could."

"Well, if it isn't the creator of the revolting object you trainers call the Pokedex." N said spitefully.

"You know I don't get it." Bianca said. "You seem to put so much hate on trainers, but aren't you one as well? You travel with Pokemon and keep them in PokeBalls, so wouldn't that make you a trainer, too?"

N stared at Bianca angrily. "Do not throw me in with your lot! I ask my friends to travel along side me, not force them to! If I have to ask them to fight, I let them go free afterwards so they don't have to fight anymore, no matter the outcome of the battle! I am not a trainer, nor will I ever be! Trainers are horrible people." N locked eyes with Touko for a moment, with an angry and pained look in his eyes, before turning his back on them. "And I hate them all!!"

With that, N ran away from the three women out of Chargestone Cave.

"What an odd guy, not to mention rude!" Bianca yelled. "How can he judge all trainers like that without knowing them?!"

"Bianca, aren't you doing the same thing that boy did?" Professor Juniper asked. "You're also judging him without knowing anything about him."

"Ehehe..." Bianca laughed sheepishly and scratched the back of her head.

"Everyone is entitled to their own opinions, dear." Juniper said, patting Bianca's back. "No two opinions are exactly the same, and it's not right to forcefully try to change someone else's opinion to match your own. Isn't that right, Touko?"

Touko didn't answer for a minute, silently hiding the hurt N's words left on her. She actually didn't mind being hated (she was pretty sure some members of Team Plasma grew to dislike her). It was the fact that N hated her that made her heart ache painfully. She felt like she should have expected N's reaction, but she still couldn't understand why hearing him actually say it made her hurt so much. She shouldn't care how N feels about her, she didn't care what anyone else thought, so why did she feel this way?

"Yes, you're right professor." Touko answered numbly.

"Are you feeling alright, dear?" Juniper asked, placing a caring hand on Touko's shoulder.

Touko rubbed her forehead in attempt to ease her headache. "It's just been a long day, professor."

Professor Juniper smiled kindly and patted Touko's shoulder. "Come on, you two. Tonight, you're staying with me and my father."

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"You want to do what?!?"

N remained steadfast, even with Ghetsis yelling in his face. "You heard me, Ghetsis. I want to abandon the mission to reawaken the legendary dragon of ideals."

A ringed hand swiftly slapped N's cheek, hard enough to force him to fall to the ground. "You idiot!! I've-We've come too far to turn back now! What would make you want to make everything Team Plasma's worked for go to waste?!"

He's right, why would I want to do that? N thought, making sure his face showed no emotion, even as he felt some blood start to trickle from the cut Ghetsis's ring left on his cheek. But N didn't need to think too hard for that answer, because he already knew it.

It was because of Touko.

It was because he didn't want to see her hurt anymore. He didn't want to be the reason she cried, and he believed that it was because of his affiliation with Team Plasma to be the reason she was afraid of him. His goal to separate all Pokemon from people was still very important to him. But Touko...she came in at a very close second. He still wasn't sure why Touko had become so important to him, why his heart ached to see her cry, and why he felt like he was dying when thoughts of her actually hating him ran through his mind. And, now that she believes that he hates her...now he felt like killing himself. Ghetsis abusing him would have to do.

"This had better not be because of that girl, N." Ghetsis said, seething with rage.

N glared at the man but said nothing, scared that something he would say could mean bad news for him and Touko.

Ghetsis's blood-red eyes narrowed. "So it is then." He let out a huff and turned his back on N. "I suppose that this was to be expected. After all, opposites attract."

"What are you saying?" N asked, keeping his eyes on the robed man.

Ghetsis turned his head back to N and smiled cruelly. "I'm saying that the girl named Touko White is the legendary hero of truth, of this I am positive. The best way to prove this if for both you and her to revive the twin dragons from their slumber." He chuckled darkly. "Things are going to get very fun soon now that that girl, the hero of truth, has revealed herself."

"Leave her out of this!" N yelled, grabbing Ghetsis's robe.

"Don't touch me, boy." Ghetsis said calmly, easily pushing N back to the ground. He sighed. "Who would have thought a mere trainer - a mere girl - would become more important to you than your friends the Pokemon."

N was silent, realizing that what Ghetsis said was becoming true. Touko was beginning to become more important than saving his friends from the cruelty of trainers. She shouldn't be clouding N's thoughts and swaying his resolve. But still, the girl never left him.

Growling, N turned his head away from Ghetsis. "My friends will always come first. No matter who the girl is or will become, she won't replace them."

Ghetsis stared at the boy a moment longer before snapping his fingers. Around him, the Shadow Triad appeared, kneeling on one knee in respect. "We are done with this conversation, N. You have a mission to fulfill. Don't disappoint me." With that, the Shadow Triad each placed a hand on one of Ghetsis's shoulders and all four vanished into thin air.

N, alone once again, gently probed his now swollen cheek. It was tender to the touch with dried dirty blood surrounding the cut. N sighed. It would take at least a day for the swelling to subside and even longer for the cut to heal. But N's thoughts were more preoccupied with a certain girl with blue topaz's for eyes, even though he tried hard for them not to be. N was used to Ghetsis's abuse. But when he thought about what might happen if Ghetsis was able to get his hands on her, only one thing came to his mind:

N prayed that Touko would never have to suffer at Ghetsis's cruel hands.
*Note To all who've read my Homestuck fanfic, this is not another one. This shipping is based on the game Pokemon: Black Version. IF YOU DON'T LIKE, DON'T READ. SIMPLE AS THAT.*

sheesh.

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*EDIT: I did NOT draw this pic. Original image here!*

Alert the presses! Chapter 9 has arrived!!~ :iconlawooplz:
I finally let you all know what happens after last chapter's cliffhanger hooray~
First of all, I'm so sorry that I made all of you wait this long for the next chapter! :icondontkillmeplz:

The scene where Touko almost slaps N was suggested by this person: :iconqtluvbugtx712: (although she actually suggested that Touko punches N, oh well~)

I feel bad for Touko and N in this chapter. Because Touko believes that N hates her and she's heartbroken because of it, and N hates himself for making Touko believe that he hates her. Just, so much sorrow for these two right now. :iconcryforeverplz:

Oh noes! What does Ghetsis have planned for Touko? Whatever it is, it sure doesn't sound pretty.
Find out what happens next in Chapter 10!~

Pokemon and all its characters belong to Nintendo.
Story is mine.
Inspiration for this story from :iconfieryfafar:
Have a wonderful day/afternoon/night/whatever.~ :heart:

*EDIT P.S. you can now read Chapter 10 here: fallenfrominsanity.deviantart.…
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Tenshineko01's avatar
Reading this again, I really dislike Gaycheese. Mind if I send Jeff my Mudkip to meet with N?